The emotions I feel
I cannot express
The words get tangled
And confusion sets in
I don’t yet understand
Why I feel this way
I’m not quite sure
What I could even say
The pain felt deep
Deeper than before
I cannot tell you why
I’m not sure I can do this anymore
The front that shows
Is not my true self
The tears I cry
Show only when I allow
Alone, by myself, secluded
To try and figure it out
Why the pain has come back
It seems to seek me out
When I write things down
Nothing seems clear
Everything becomes blurry
All my hopes, dreams and fears
Time will only tell
If I can make it through
Living my life
Of only memories of me and you
I hope the pain will soon subside
And my heart will let me move on
Try to understand
And somehow gather up my pride
I will begin to grow
And live day to day
Dealing with the pain
And the game I chose to play
by Carolyn Stebbins
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Wow… This poem is so great! I really can feel your struggle while reading this poem. I can also realate to your poem because while I was in 7th grade I was harasssed every single day more than once, but I choose to deal with the pain (as your poem says), but it ended destroying me emotional and physically. I’m doing wonderful now that I’m homeschooled. But I still live with the scares. Thank you much for writting this poem. They are really good.
I like this peom alot some parts just feel like what i feel, i feel i have alot to say but can’t put the words together to say it, this poem helped abit. thanks