My Beautiful Rach
**Should I send it? My GF of 7 years finished with me a month ago and is now in Venice acting. I miss her and wrote the below (my first poem so be gentle!). I'm not sure if I should send it?**
A world without you I could never have foreseen,
I always believed that we would always have been,
I always believed that we belonged to each other,
That our hearts and our souls were united forever,
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I lay awake at night and can think only of you,
Wondering how and why my nightmare came true,
Wondering how you are and what you are doing,
Whether you love Venice and you know what we're losing,
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The love that we shared I shall treasure forever,
The love that I've lost we have both lost together,
My heart feels so empty without you by my side,
My one regret is that we didn’t try to survive.
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I don't want to pretend to try and understand why,
I can only hope my Rach, that this isn't goodbye,
My beautiful Rach, who I've adored for so long,
I hope for our sakes that we can try and stay strong,
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That one day in our future our paths will again cross,
And that our old selves will remember what we had lost,
That we can be happy together and never forget,
That we don't live our lives with another regret.
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My Beautiful Rachael, I miss you so much,
I so miss your love, your face and your touch,
I miss all our fun times, our drunk times and cuddles,
I miss all your kisses, your hugs and your smiles.
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I miss your voice and your texts and your calls,
I long for another story about your day and your falls,
I miss just knowing that you’ll be there after work,
That I had you in my life and I'd never feel this hurt,
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I wish I had been with you at your party and premier,
I'm sorry my biggest regret is that I was not there,
That I didn't support you when you needed me to,
That I didn't tell you how proud I was, if only you knew,
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I'm sorry for losing you, for making you not love me,
For not being a better man, the boyfriend I could be,
For not showing more often how much that I loved you,
How important you were to me, how much I adored you.
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I know what you're doing and that you're trying to hide,
That you’re trying to pretend you have nothing inside,
That I never existed and your decision was right,
That you won’t ever miss me if I’m kept out of sight.
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But I promise you this Rach, I have learnt from mistakes,
I hope I can prove to you, before it's too late,
To prove to you again that we can be happy together,
That your old James is back and he will last you forever.
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Jamesy xxxo
by James S
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