Meant To Be
Oh how my heart is feeling blue and saddened to the memories that have come and gone
As I stare at this computer, thinking of you, the music is in the background, but I can’t hear the song
Oh my heart aches from crying these tears of anger and hatred of what you’re putting me through
I want this to be all over, because I am going in circles and I just don’t know what to do
As I think of you and what you are trying to do, to break the ice between you and me
My heart sways back and forth, from is going to be the same way as it use to be
Or is going to be the same, as I walk through life with my hand holding my heart
I need to step away and feel again, I truly believe that’s a good place to start
To take away the pain and the hurt that was always there, but buried deep inside
As our talks leads us no where now, as I pour my heart out as I confide
In you with all my thoughts, ambitions and things that I wanted to say
As I leave my heart spilling out the words on paper, even today
I feel alone within my own skin, and I have felt this way for quite some time
Wanting to heal from the pain and hurt, and sew up this heart of mine
As I think about all the blame that was slung back and forth to each other
I have become this person who I hate so much, I have become your mother
I suppose to be the mother of our children to raise them with their hopes and dreams
As I search for the answers within myself, asking myself what does this all mean
I can’t do this any more, I can not be pushed into something or someone I don’t want to be
This is why I am begging, pleading with you, to let go, let me find myself, and ask “If it was really meant to be”
by Josie Smith-Holl
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